It is now almost a week that I have been away from Calgary. So far it has been a great trip, some much needed time away. So far we have spent nights in Kelowna, Vancouver, Tofino (3 nights) and then tonight we are staying in Nanaimo. Tonight will be our second night in a hotel, with all other nights spent camping. Yesterday was probably our best day so far. The plan was for Wes to rent some surfing gear and then I would spend the day hanging out on the beach with my book while he tried surfing for a bit. While he shopped around for the best rental price I decided that was a very lame idea, why couldn't I go surfing too? Well the answer to that question is because of my PICC line in my arm that I can't get wet. After some careful engineering with plastic bag and a lot of duct tape (very painful to remove from the skin afterwards) I was good to go (don't tell my mom). Surfing was much harder than I had imagined. Most of the time I just jumped on my board and layed on my stomach as the wave came in and I was nowhere near able to stand up quick enough to try actual surfing....still lots of fun :)
By Wednesday night we should be back in Calgary. The thought of returning to Calgary is not a very exciting one. Back to city and back to hospitals and illness. While I am never able to forget for very long what is going on at least when I have been away there are many more distractions, many beautiful views and many more laughs. Over the last week there have also been a few tears. Wes and I have been really happy together and unfortunately feeling so happy is often quickly followed by fears. Fears that things will only get worse from here. Fears that this might be the last time I visit these places or do a certain activity. When I get really sad I am often thinking about what Wes will remember about this trip if things in our lives start to go really bad. Will he think back happily about this trip, or will it just make him sad to think of all the fun times we are having. All thoughts I don't really want to be having. At least for the next four days I am going to do my best to put all the negative thoughts away and try my best to pretend that cancer doesn't exist. Wish me luck.
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Hi Kimmy
ReplyDeleteWow, your vacation sounds fantastic. I just love B.C. I lived in B.C. for a while a number of years ago. My daughter Teri was born on the island. It is absolutely beautiful country. You will definitely go back there many times during your lifetime.
Good for you for going surfing--you are a lot braver than I. P.S. I won't tell your Mom. Who knew duct tape had so many uses. I'll bet it was not fun to remove!!!
Good to read that you only have one more chemo treatment.
Keep your spirits up Kimmy and remember all the fun times you and Wes are having and will have in the future.
Enjoy the rest of your vacation Kimmy.
Love Dar
Hi Kim. I am so happy that you had a holiday but can understand your lack of desire to go back to Calgary. I just hope and pray that next year at this time this illness will be behind you and life will be back to normal. I don't know Wes but give him a hug (and yourself as well). You are both amazing taking on this adventure and surfing as well.
ReplyDeleteMuch love
Aunt Joanne