Chemo Brain

So the worst side effect of chemo has to be "chemo brain". I would say that I only started feeling it about 2 or 3 weeks ago, and since my last chemo treatment on Wednesday "chemo brain" has taken over. It is really a difficult feeling to describe. It is incredibly hard to focus on anything around me, and you spend long periods of time staring at walls, not even really realizing it. The expressions "space cadet", "out to lunch", "nobody's home" seem to fit. It is almost like something else has taken over your brain and I'm not really in my body anymore. Okay, when I read this back it sounds very strange and probably makes no sense to anyone else. Chemo is bad enough that it messes with all kinds of healthy cells in your body, it really sucks that it messes with your head so much too. You go from feeling like an intelligent person to questioning whether or not your are even capable of carrying on a normal conversation. As far as chemo brain goes I think today will be the worst day, as it is the first day I have been off my post-chemo medications. Hopefully as the days go on I will be able to focus a little more and not feel so drugged up all the time.