Yesterday was not a good day. I had a bone scan yesterday and made the mistake of asking the technician if it was normal to be taking so many pictures of my chest. She said there was some concern about my sternum...and asked if I had been having any pain there...which I have. I am hoping this is rock bottom....I have breast cancer with has spread to my lymph nodes and now apparently is also in my bones. I just hope and pray that it has not also spread to my lungs and liver.
Waiting for these test results is agonizing. At times I think it will be so bad, and in a couple days they will tell me that I am screwed....but I need to be positive. It is just so hard to be positive when you have gotten all this news dumped on you in the last week and feel like a completely healthy person. I think about what it will be like to die, but more so what it will be like for my family and friends. But I know that I can't give up...I want them to give me everything they've got. It's going to be a very long road ahead of me but I have to do this...I have so much to live for.
About Me
- kimvandie
- I am a 27 year old elementary school teacher who received the shock of a lifetime when I was diagnosed on April 14, 2010 with advanced stage breast cancer. I am learning to live a new life and accept the challenges that have entered my path, and strongly hope that these challenges will help create a more caring and compassionate person when they have been destroyed!
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