Boredom

For the last three weeks I have been running from appointment to appointment almost every day. There have been only a few days where there has been very little to do. For the last couple days I have had no appointments and with my mom back in Ontario I have had to find other ways to entertain myself. This has not been easy. As a teacher with 2 months off every summer I often found it difficult to keep myself entertained during the days. After about a month I was usually ready to go back to school because I was sick of sitting around. Yesterday I spent most of the day on my computer and then watched 2 movies. By the end of the day I felt a bit like a zombie. Before I was diagnosed I was always on the go. I worked usually 8-10 hour days and then was rarely home in the evenings as I was out with friends or playing on my sports teams or in the mountains for the weekend. I miss this busy fast paced life style. So much in my life has changed in the last few weeks but having to change my lifestyle is probably one of the hardest. I guess I need to get a more relaxed hobby...no more rock climbing or 8 hour Saturday hikes...this sucks. I have lots of books and movies to watch and I guess I can go for lots of walks but this just isn't the same. I feel like cancer is making me lazy...I can't work and I can't do the activities that I love. 2010 is going to be a very long year.