The Coming Week

As far as the weeks go, this week would be considered a busy one. It is chemo week. How exciting! This will be my third treatment...out of either six or eight. While chemo is only a couple of hours on Wednesday it seems like there is lots to do to get ready. Tuesday I have my pre-chemo blood work and oncologist check up. I feel a bit nervous about these, which I wasn't at all last time. Last blood work my white blood cell count was borderline....meaning they almost didn't give me chemo on my scheduled day. Worst case scenario I might have to wait a couple extra days to get my treatment. While this doesn't sound like much it would be a huge let-down. I kinda psych myself up for treatment and strangely enough almost look forward to the day. It is one more treatment I can check off my calendar and I feel like when I am receiving this lovely cocktail of poison I am safer...the cancer is being fought...something is being done other than just waiting. The other reason I am a bit nervous is because this time I have had some side effects, whereas after treatment #1 I had nothing really to report to the doctor. This time I have felt some aches and pains throughout my body and my stomach seems to be always churning (I am sure these are completely normal but in my lowest moments I can convince myself that they are bad signs). Also to get ready for Wednesday I need to make sure my refrigerator is well stocked, my prescriptions have been picked up and all the little loose ends that I have been putting off have been tied up. Oh ya and on Friday I am going to see a therapist! How exciting! I made the call last week after my roller coaster kept refusing to go up the next hill (maybe that only makes sense to me :) So far I have been doing lots to help my body heal and fight, it is time to do a little work on my mind...the part of me that has been suffering and struggling the most with all of this.