The Weekend

DISCLAIMER - I usually try not to be negative in my posts and write about the really bad days because those are better forgotten, but sometimes it is difficult to avoid. Unfortunately the weekend camping trip did not happen. A few days before I started having little aches and pains in my stomach and chest. This completely freaked me out and was all I thought about day and night. I kept on getting reassured by people that this was normal, often happens with chemo, but still couldn't focus on anything else. Saturday morning after not sleeping the night before I decided that we should go camping anyways...I needed a distraction and what good would it do sitting around worrying. Wes got all of his stuff packed, packed the car and then we drove all the way to Chain Lakes (about an hour and a half from Calgary...still 2 hours away from Fernie, our destination). The whole car ride I was worried. I worried about being so far away from Calgary, so far away from the hospital. So when we got to Chain Lakes we turned the car around and headed back to Calgary. Wes was great the whole time, said it would be better to go on a weekend with promising weather anyway, but I still felt like shit. It is probably better not to share what was happening in my head the whole way home and for the rest of the afternoon. Instead when we got back I called the hospital and talked to a doctor who assured me that this was all normal, not a sign that things were getting worse. He said that since I have already seen such good results in some parts of my body the cancer is very unlikely to be spreading in others (since all the cells are the same cancer cells). He prescribed me some pills in case the pain got bad, including a sleeping pill which was much needed. Since then my mood has improved a lot, though there are still a few times where I have had to force myself to "snap out of it". Also, my brother arrived from Ontario yesterday. He drove across the country with his cat to spend at least the summer in Calgary. He can work from his company's Calgary office here, but made the decision to move here after I found out I was sick. I really am surrounded by awesome people!